Each of us are in the midst of a war. We all fight a different battle, but our enemy’s end game remains the same… To destroy us. He will use any means he can to infiltrate and infect our heart, mind and spirit. Often times while our eyes are fixed on the evident or discernible battle in front of us, he is sneaking through the back door and we give way to a secondary –but no less important– fight. For me, isolation has been that pitfall.
I have written of our struggle over the past year. While the most heartbreaking truth of our difficulties has been centered around our daughter’s illness, the most detrimental has been the fact that I nearly allowed isolation to swallow me whole. Having an ill, immune compromised child can be a lonely existence. Every decision you make, every aspect of your life revolves around their safety. It becomes difficult to go almost anywhere. Public places are out. Church is out. You can’t even go to your own family’s homes without first asking the questions “Is anyone sick or has anyone been exposed to sickness?” During cold and flu season the answer is a resounding “yes.” So you resign yourself to be within the confines of your own home. And the loneliness begins to set in…..
From the animal kingdom to known tactics of abusers to strategies in war, isolation is utilized as a means to destroy. When one is alone or “feels” alone they are more susceptible to succumb to the attacks of the enemy. In my case, it was the lies and the accusations that began to creep in to my mind that led to my undoing. At first I rejected them but never brought them into submission. Then they began to sound like my own voice and played on repeat in my ear. After awhile I was so entrenched in the deception that I believed those words were coming from God himself. Satan is a liar. From the beginning he was the great deceiver, our adversary and the accuser of our soul. He is the one who says “That promise isn’t for you. You are unworthy. You haven’t learned your lesson. God’s plan is for you to suffer. God hasn’t provided what you need. You are alone. You are unloved. You don’t belong…..”. He is a liar. All lies come from him and he tells his lies strategically to convince you they are truth. How do I combat his lies even when all of it “feels” true? God gave us His living word that is as true now as they day it was written so we can know with total certainty that anything that does not line up with His word is false. What does God’s word say about us?
We are worthy and His promises are for all of us. Romans 8:38:39 “For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation will separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus.”
He has a good plan for us and provides all we need. Jeremiah 29:11 “For I know the plans I have for you declares the Lord. Plans to prosper you and not to harm you. Plans to give you hope and a future.” Romans 8:28 “And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose”
We are not alone. Isaiah 41:10 “So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed for I am your God. I will strengthen you and I will help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.”
We are his beloved and we belong to him. Ephesians 1:4-8 “For he chose us in him before the creation of the world to be holy and blameless in his sight. In love he predestined us for adoption to sonship through Jesus Christ, in accordance with his pleasure and will- to the praise of his glorious grace, which he has freely given us in the One he loves. In him we have redemption through his blood, the forgiveness of sins, in accordance with the riches of God’s grace that he lavished on us.”
I started to lose my fight because I didn’t recognize the attack of my enemy and because I did not weigh what I believed my heart and head were saying against the the word, the truth, of God. But glory to God for opening my eyes and restoring to me all the ground I lost! A great deal of my life is still lived without the fellowship of friends and family. But I am no longer in despair for my God is with me. He carries me through. I delight in him and the life he has given me. And I have peace.
Whatever you face, remember He is a good and gracious Father. He is with you. He will never leave you nor forsake you. In him and him alone lies the truth. And the moment you turn your eyes back to him and embrace the truth you are delivered, you are redeemed and you have won.
All my love,